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Jah didn't kill Johnny! |
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| Acquainted With The Night |
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| 12:38am 06/03/2007 |
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I have been one acquainted with the night
I have walked out in the rain - and back in the rain
I have outwalked the furthest city light
I have looked down the saddest city lane
I have passed by the watchman on his beat
And dropped my eyes, unwilling to explain
I have stood still and stopped the sound of feet
When far away from an interrupted cry
Came over houses from another street
But not to call me back or say goodbye
And further still at an unearthly height
One luminary clock against the sky
Proclaimed the time was neither wrong nor right
I have been one acquainted with the night
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| 12:35am 11/04/2006 |
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The cloud is dead, the fog has cleared,
The sun is peaking through a happy little tree |
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| Something Touched me deep inside, The day the music died |
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| 02:27pm 24/03/2006 |
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So it's like yeah......
I gave up drugs and excessive alcohol consumption so that I could concentrate more on the things that are important. But it didnt work... if anything it... un worked..? .. uh.. like... oh man. The tables have turned. I ended up losing so many friends...I shouldn't have rejecteced the opportunities to make new ones.. all the people who said.. "ring me" but I never did.. Dammit. But I guess I moved on.
"I Drove My Chevy To The Levee, But The Levee Was Dry"
I feel like such a failure.. I'm 22... twenty motherfucking two. That's old. I was 17 a few days ago.. and 15 a few days before that. Man I grew up quick.. I feel like I wasted so much..And now you know... if things go to plan I'm going to be in university until I'm 25. Twenty Five? Man. People are married and with kids at my age... what have I got to show for twenty two years? Bags under my eyes, a warped understanding of conscience and a bitter sense of humour. And a gap. A thirst.
I mean.. I haven't travelled. I haven't seen the world.. I want to see the world.
(Don't talk to me about the 1960's)
At this moment... I just want to get drunk.. or stoned.. or wasted.. etc. Even a cigarette would be nice.
God I hate MySpace? Like.. I really hate it.. It's the new Live Journal isnt it...but it's so . . . gay (says the guy with the livejournal account)... but I don't know.. it does my head in.
Better to live one day as a wolf than a thousand years as a sheep....... |
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| 08:51pm 07/03/2006 |
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mood: bluh music: Colleen - Ritournelle
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"When I was a very young boy / mamma told me we're all gonna die"
Ooof, man life sucks. Well it doesn't but it does. I can't be doing with all this sheepness, word.
I got people shouting at me from all angles, go away please.
Now until September is going to be a struggle..especially now I'm drugless.. and faithless. I have had thoughts but, you know... fuck it. Fuck everything while you're at it. I'd like to be 15 again
I finally finished reading this book on Hiram Bingham 'Lost City Of The Incas' it was struggle... it was a fkn struggle, but I made it.. I now have the option of group reading Howard Zinns 'The Peoples History of America' I guess I will read it... it'll be cool having people to discuss my thoughts with.
I hurt my knee so no football for me for a bit.. Sheffield Wednesday are in trouble in the league... and I think Palermo have a great chance to win the UEFA cup ! Forza raggazi...
But yeah otherwise....fuck it. At this moment.. I probably hate you. Sorry, that's just how it is. I can't even count the number of people I'll never see again
How hiphop Am I? |
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| Please Stop Calling My Zebra In Class |
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| 04:16pm 27/02/2006 |
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mood:  wth does it mean? music: Nels Cline
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Three hours short of two days. Eh, kind of disappointing.
It was easier than I thought tbh, food didnt even cross my mind, but I didnt take any opportunites to have any quiet moments of peaceful thoughts, so perhaps another time more shall be acheived.
Oh man, I really need a job being at home all day is making me go mad |
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| Kingdoms come and kingdoms go |
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| 12:42pm 25/02/2006 |
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mood:  melancholy music: Infinite Buddhism
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Ladies and gentlemen, as an experiment into my inner mind I am venturing on a period of fasting. The end date is the point of the experiment, to see how long I can last. Honestly, I'm hungry now ,but that's only because I'm a greedy bastard, so I don't know quite what to expect from myself, even though I'm quite strong willed...sometimes.
"Faith lies in the depth of every soul, but surfaces only in the weak".
I've been doing a lot of reading up on Buddhism recently, it's really interesting, I think I should have been a buddhist monk.. it sounds like the paradise I've been chasing. But monothiesm isn't for me, perhaps my Nirvana exists, but in my own individual manner.
And I've started drafting a book (well..don't know if it's right to call it a book)...about 'Life Alternatives', I don't know why. But it's fun writing it and denouncing all this crazy shit around us that we take in because it's all that we know. Things like materialism and currency.. I was definetly born at least 5 centuries too late, and probably on the wrong continent. Anyway, this book.....well it's a learning process. The more I take in from all the reading I've been doing the more I have the opportunity to output in the various formats which I choose....this is a short short poem...
"I've come to the conclusion
That I'm just not human material"
It's a statement, but it's poetic...
In other news, I think I might be forming some type of Insomnia, it's crazy I can't sleep. That's why I started writing that book.. my mind seems to function best at night.. definetly born in the wrong country.
And I when I do fall asleep.. normally 4-5am I can't get out of bed till 11-12 noon the next day and so people all call me lazy, fair enough I am lazy.. well.. not lazy... but not willing to contribute to the building of this so-called "better place". This saying means a lot to me..
"Paradise doesn't stand a chance against progress"
I'm going to university in september.. I shall relish the experience more than the education I think. But perhaps I'm not dedicated enough to make it worthwhile...I don't know.. and if I don't...then who does?!
I finally completed a song I was working on about 'Maleficent' the great she. The evil witch from Disneys Sleeping Beauty, she truly is the beauty of the title. Magnificent.
This is like.. the longest and most serious post I've ever made ever. Fuck, I've gone all weird |
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| Curiouser and Curiouser |
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| 12:40am 17/01/2006 |
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Curiouser And Curiouser!
"All the world will be your enemy.. Prince with a thousand enemies.. And whenever they catch you, they will kill you" |
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| 12:13am 29/10/2005 |
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mood: The Calm before the.. music: Gangstarr
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Yo lookin at the situation plainly: will you remain G?
Or will you be looked upon strangely?
I reign as the articulator, with the greater data
Revolvin on the Tascam much doper than my last jam
While others struggle to juggle, tricky metaphors
I explore more, to expose the core
A lot of MC's, act stupid to me
And we have yet to see, if they can match our longevity
But anyway it's just another day
Another fake jack I slay with my spectac' rap display
Styles, smooth but rugged -- you can't push or shove it
You dig it and you dug it cause like money you love it
The king of monotone, with my own throne
Righteously violent prone my words bring winds like cyclones
Stormin your hideout, blockin out your sunlight
Your image and your business, were truly not done right
Throw up your he-Allah-I now, divine saviors
You got no hand skills there's no security to save ya
No pager, no celly, no drop top Benz-y
I came to bring your phoney hip-hop, to an ending
My art of war will leave you sore from the abuse
Cause you must meet your moment of truth
They say it's lonely at the top, in whatever you do
You always gotta watch motherfuckers around you
No-one is untouchable, no man is bulletproof
We all must meet our moment of truth |
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| I was beginning to not trust me |
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| 12:01am 28/10/2005 |
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mood:  listless music: Benjamin Zephaniah - Wrong Radio Station
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"My ears are battered and burned, and I have just learned,
That I have been listening to the wrong radio station"
Grr..I'm getting less and less starts for my football team.. our squad is too big this year.. I might have to find another..
"Oh, there goes gravity"
And I'm kinda worrying about a coursework assignement I have to do for my Film studies class. I think I'm too old for school work, argh help.
"You must, be satisfied.tuh"
That Ed Gein fellow was a bit of a nutter huh?
"the white man's the baddest poet"
oh and.. I really really need a job. I'm getting bad phone calls from the bank.
Thanks for the postcard
Love
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| '83 Til Forever |
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| 01:25am 25/09/2005 |
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mood: Different music: Stephen Stills - For What It's Worth
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Wow so yeah, been a while
Um.. stuff's happened, that's cool int it? Lots has changed.. I think I'm slightly better now. Clearer and all that, word? Still crazy though... but in a good way.
'83 Til Forever. Gorgeous aint it! I'm gonna have that on my grave.
I'm kinda happier now, but also kinda sadder. you do know who your friends are don't you? oh.. you don't?
shame. The physics of a bicycle are still remarkable
(there's something happening here,
what it is aint exactly clear,
there's a man with a gun over there,
telling me, I've got to beware.
I think it's time to stop
children what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down)
Peace, Love & Unity |
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| 08:35pm 20/07/2005 |
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Dunno
Dunno
Dunno
Dunno
Dunno
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| The silence between the beats |
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| 07:32pm 02/07/2005 |
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mood: Pffffrrrrraaaaaaaaggggrhrhhrh! music: REM - Losing My Religion
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Mother nature made the submarine.
I still float, which I thank the creater for. I still feel and move. I am blessed am I.
Do you remember the stupid night together when we both said things we wanted to but knew we shouldn't have. It was funny because we were at our best. The honest us. And now?
"You never realise how much you miss a *person*, until you realise you never gonna see them again"
Thanks Noreaga. January, February, March, April, May And June went quick didn't they. It will be January again before I wake up. What did I do in 2004? Not sure. Stuff. I think I need to invest in some new climbing equipment, because I haven't gotten very far off the ground.
I love it when people talk all this talk saying you can do it if you really want it. The irony is that the majority of people that say that didn't do it themselves. Hippo-cats. This world wasn't made for people like me. Or them. (It must be, the plutonium in me)
Twenty One years later. . . |
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| You Must . . . Be Satisfied. Tuh |
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| 09:50pm 27/04/2005 |
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Well so.. I woke up this morning and I was here. Don't know how or why, as it's been such a long time since I was last at this place. I'm surprised I remembered the way.
I got burnt. But we all get burnt. So it's nothing to shout about
One day we'll all die anyway.
Do you ever think about what would have happened if humans didnt make the wheel
"Always in a relationship" That's not a straight answer. Not straight at all.
Still...we'll always have tuesday.
(PS - if this is you pulling on my beard, please stop soon)
Do you believe?
You must . . be Satisfied. Tuh
You must . . be Satisfied. Tuh
You must . . be Satisfied. Tuh
You must . . be Satisfied. Tuh
You must . . be Satisfied. Tuh
You must . . be Satisfied. Tuh
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| He Teackled. We Snoutched |
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| 07:05pm 18/01/2005 |
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mood: hmph music: Stranger Water
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my 3 closest friends are probably the most boring people of all time.
"you're scared of leaving the sides of your square
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| The Lost & Confused Tourist |
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| 08:12am 06/12/2004 |
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mood: Lost & Confused music: Sage Francis - Crack Pipes
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I Wrote this last night.
"I want to run
I want to feel all 4 winds
I want to play every instrument
and speak every language
I want to see every sea
I want to wear shorts and sandals
I want a girl in every country
I want to have to use lotion
I want to lay in a hammock
I want to breathe ice-cold air
I want to write in symbols
I want to sit in a rain storm
I want to play music that makes people cry
I want to author a book with no words
I want to find an island
I want to know how my story ends
I want to be free
It's half past one. I want to sleep"
I'm 21 soon. And I don't know what I want. |
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| 10:10pm 15/09/2004 |
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It's sickening that we live in a country where people would protest so violently for such a brutal past time
The BBC had something to do with the house of commons break-in too. |
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